Another first for me and my eldest daughter. Today, my baby became a lady. I have been trying to prepare myself for this day -- but maybe it's just me, but I took this experience as an emotional one. When my daughter asked for my help to check whether this is the big day -- and after confirming that it is -- I found myself in tears. It was a mixed emotion. (And my daughter thinks I'm a loonie for crying about it). As a woman, I knew that this day would come. Maybe I wasn't ready to let go of my baby. Perhaps I wasn't emotionally prepared. Maybe I have fears that she was growing up so fast.
When I broke into tears, my daughter hugged me and assured me that things would be okay. Then I realized, I was scared -- not for my daughter but for myself. That one day, soon enough, my baby would need to go out in this world. For the first time, I feared of being alone. Yeah, soon she has to go and face whatever fate has for her. But yeah, I guess I'm just being too emotional. Hey, don't blame me -- I have the best relationship with my daughters. I guess that's just the way it is --- I have to face and enjoy this new chapter in our life. I have to learn to realize and embrace that my baby is now a lady.